It's been a long time...

Alhamdulillah...at last n finally i get myself to write sumthing in da blog! I know...it has been a long time kn? Hehehehe...I got a pretty busy with my career n da festive season plus dun 4get da horrible server nowadays provided by celcom (thanx...ya right!) It was n actually still is da horrible n da slowest server i've ever used. They did dis huge promotion yet da services totally bad! I wonder how can they managed to call themselves a very good service provider? N same to u too maxis coz I get so many complaints as well! Hello...!!! Darnn!!!

I think n I hope I'm not late to wish everybody SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI and HAPPY DEEPAVALI. Hope you guys had enjoyed ur festive with ur dearest families!

Huu...there're so many things I wanna write down...wish time had spare more for me yet not n impossible! I knew it! So...what 2 do??? Juz enjoy da moment though...hahaha!

Recently well actually on da 2nd of october...I went to Cherating for our Nephrology Family Day. It's a holiday...I know..at last! I get out from da misery of working! Hahaha...sorry 4 being sooo honest!

We went there for 3 days n 2 nights. I'm in a room with my friends...Ros n K'non. Thanks guys...I love ya!

Da room was pretty nice with da accomodations provided quite satisfied plus da toilet...4 me...really comfortable!

We stayed at Suria resort. My room opposite to da beach, so I have a sea view from my room. They have a big pool n so many stuff but I didn't managed to use all of it! What a waste!

Da food...luxurious! So, i think they desreved a big clap!

Of course I have some photo shoot with my friends...

N...da most important...what had happened during da last night we were there.

Me n some of my friends had went to a funfair since da night gala was not dat much interesting. We played a few games n won ourselves a fairly prize! Though we still happy!

Da beach...hang on! I wont let myself to juz ignore da beach. I'm hell like da beach! I swam if ever I had my time free! Juz name it!

N da most unforgetable memory during my swimming at da beach...nearly got myself stung by a jellyfish! I nearly touched one! Ya Allah...I'm so afraid dat time...we ran out to da shore n could c dat one jellyfish is swimming in front of us! Ya Allah...alhamdulillah! They said if u ever got stung by a jellyfish, ur hand will b so swollen!

We went home with a smirky face...I'm not sure y with everyone but for me I have my concrete reason y I should have a 'sebal' face! Da next day I'm working am shift! It's not fair! How could my KJ did da roster like dat? Did she ever thought dat we will be so hell tired with da vacation? Yet as I noticed da next day she didn't come to da work. As she said...she need to sent her mom to a clinic. N for dat she EL for 2 days! Yarkkkss!!!

So...dis is our memories...

...TrY tO LiVe tO tHe FuLLeSt...InsYaAllaH...

I set my mind...y muz i b so hell crazy thinking bout sumone else when he was not thinking even a bit bout me???

He's a guy...i'm a lady with a career n money!! Kahkahkah!!! I worked myself hard 4 da entire month n still get my salary every end of month! So...if he is not my bf or whatever....i still have my own life n since this life only spare me once...I'll try my best to enjoy it!!! With or without man...I still can live! YeePiii!!!

Sekarang aku kna fokus pd kerjaya aku n juz wait 4 da right man to come to my life...hehehehe....amacam???

Aku de plan nk terbang g arab after 3 years working here. Bside nk cri more experince...psl mencari harta gak! Hahahahaha

Kalu x dpt g arab pn...aku nk sambung study n jdi lecturer. Well...actually 2lah my real cita2! Menjadi pendidik dan kongsi pe yg aku thu...YeeHaa!!!

Jadi...since I'm still 23 thn...muda lagi nih... aku nk cri identiti seorang muslimah n menjadi sebaik2 hamba Illahi...amin. Aku cuba n akan terus mencuba! Aja aja fighting!!!

...pUsPa...ST 12....

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Chorus 1

Woo woo jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku

Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku

Ku kan selalu setia menunggu

Untuk jadi pacarmu

Chorus 2

Woo woo jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku

Jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu

Putuskanlah saja pacarmu

Lalu bilang i love you pada ku

Ulang #

Ulang chorus 1 dan 2

...mY mOmEnTo...tRaLaLaLa...

hehehe...1st of all.....ALHAMDULILLAH SESGT!!!!!! alhamdulillah...kerana aku telah diperkenalkan dgn seorg jejaka yg baik,memahami,matang...after nearly of 2 years we together...kmi semakin mengenali dan memahami diri kami seadanya.jujur ckp...dlu aku pling xfham dia.walupun aku berlagak mcam aku knal dia tp sebenarnya x!....n bermulalah konflik di antara kami...

tp walau apapun yg berlaku...aku masih bersyukur.hanya yang pernah melaluinya sje akan thu perasaan bila bergaduh dgn org yg kita syg nih....org yg kita syg??? skrg aku akui yang aku teramat sygkn dia.kalu tidak dlu aku trima dia sbb abg aku tp lepas beberapa bln perasaan tu transform jd perasaan suka!kgkwn aku pn semakin heran dan tertnya2.ini adalah kerana bf aku akn call aku setiap mlm pd jam yg sma utk sejam.memandagkn aku tidur di katil atas maka akan terasalh gegarannya di katil bwah hasil dr tawa riang aku bergayut dgn kwn bru aku nih.

tp...LJM was just around da corner. jd aku xnk cpt sgt fall for him.papehal nk bercintan-cintun nih pas LJM.dlm msa ni...he's quite supportive n really want me to belajar sungguh2...(ayat budak skola rendah!hahahaha...)

27 dis 07 berlalu dgn kura2 sekali! lambatnya jam berdetik utk ke tghri! masing2 sume tundukkn kepala khusyuk menjawab soaln2 yg tertera di atas sekeping kertas putih.da 50 soalan objektif...n that's make it all so hard sebab jawapannya dh fixed kepada A,B,C,D.kalu essay...tulih jo...ni kono plih ni yg msak cket nih!

but somehow...i knew that time me n my frenz will pass this exam together with flying colours.we have been working so hard, study so hard till late night,revised so hell hard with our lec(s)...n when we received that paper...we all knew da answers are in our hand!

with all prayers we've made,doa2 from our lec(s)...we percaya yg kami akan menempuh dugaan ini dgn jayanya!....that's truly coming from my deepest heart!

bla exam dh settle......kami blik ke asrama dgn pnuh ke'happy'an!!!wjah masing2 tertera perkataan LEGA! kuikuikui...!!! pe yg penting we have try our best n hopefully we all pass...amin!

...............................waiting 4 da result......................................

Yay! YaY! kini disampaikan berita terkini.......kepada semua pelatih2 jururawat di kolej kejururawatan murni yang menduduki peperiksaan LJM pd 27 dis 07,adalah dimaklumkan bahawa................ANDA SUME LULUS EXAM LJM!!!!!! da bestest was...kami antara kolej yang berjaya 100%!!!! YayAy!!!

it's one of a news that make our worried heart to a happy heart! we weren't juz happy but it's more than that...juz xthu nk explain cmner!!!!

Alhamdulillah.......


DEDICATED TO ALL MY FRIENDS........CONGRATULATIONS YO!!!

aLhAmDuLiLLaH taPi...aDuuUii...

hehehe...hri ni aku cuti lg. aku kna jga 2 budak aka anak spupu aku aka ank buah aku. yg c adik tu hri ni asyik meragam jer...agknya prut dia xbest kot bab seminggu ni ibu dia komplen adik asyik diarea jer. time aku jga td sekali jer dua BO tu pun ciar n wrna ijau...hehehehe....

kakak dia masih maintain 'gurl byk mulut'! hehehehe...cruel kn aku bg gelaran cmtu tp da fact is mmg c kakak tu byk mlut! umo bru nk msuk 2thn tp bercakap xhenti2! pening aku layan kerenah c kakak n c adik...kuang3...

dlm kul 3ptg ibu dorg alek n amek ank dia. lega...huhuhuhu!

aku start sambung kemas blik aku yg aku kemas dri semalm xsdh2. nk ktakn blik aku bsar cm pdg bola...ngarutlh tukn...!

saiz blik aku ciput jer...sekangkang kera je! tp nk mengemasnya mengambil masa smp 2 siang! hehehe...now u guys can imagine how messy n terrible my room was!

pas vakum...i arrange all my comics as tidy as it should b...elloooo...i'm a gurl lar...kna kemas. kalau x nnti xder sape nk bt bini tau! huhuhuh...

at last...i washed my fan yg dh xder rupa fan dh! hbuknya...MasyaAllah...ish3... angin pn dh xdpt rsa dh! hehehehe...so sowi...bruk perangai...bruk perangai...

n TADDDDaaaa!!! my room plus my fan...clean n clear!!!!! bru nmpk cm blik ank dra! kuang3...!!!

u might b wondering wat da heck i put da pic of a lady rubbing her back kn???

hahaha....it is bcoz belakang aku sakit!!! bkn nk cite yg buat kje ckit dh sakit belakang...bukanlh!!!

tp aku sakit belakang sejak bgn tdo pg td...rsanya slh position lar tdo mlm td...sengal....sengal...my back is sengal!!!!!!!!!

i asked my mama to pijak my back...n kraCCkk!!! kRaaACCK! kRaaCCKKk! bunyi tulang aku berbunyi...tp tmpt lain bkn tmpat yg sakit tu!!!! addduuuuiiiii.......!!!!!!!!

nk wat gano nih?

wei...sesape nk tgk fs aku @ facebook aku...tgk lar... fs: irdina86@gmail.com, facebook: tea1511@gmail.com

jgn dtny knp gna nma irdina...sbnrnya tu nma watak yg aku cipta utk novel aku dlu. pekabolh nvel aku skrg eh??? hhmmm...???

...aKhiRnYa...aLhaMduLiLLaH...

Alhamdulillah...hri ni aku dh updatekn blog aku ke lebih berwarna-warni. asyik gelap...dull...sorrow...jer...i think of something volourful wlopun msih gelap sebenarnya. hehehe...

so...korg amcam hri ni? sihat? mkan? minum? aku alhamdulillah...semakin 'sihat'! duk rumah ler ktakan. cmner erk?

hri ni dh mla dh sesi persekolahan. my little bro who is in form 2 dh g sekolah alek. n my 2 cutest budak yg mama aku asuh pn dh smp kt dpn umah aku seawal 7 pg. noted eh...ibu dorg cikgu...no wonder la..

skoOll...skOoLL...hahaha...bye2 to my old memoir!

no more homework! no more cikgu yg membebel! no more all fussy friends! n of course no more makanan kantin yg xsedap!!!

tp idup as an adult ni pn mmg byk dugaan n cabaran...

byk onak dan berdurinya! huhuhuh....

g kolej...byk gila plak assignmentnya...

duit...duit...duit...nk g cc and byr fotostat, internet line lg! asyik xckup duit jer....huhuhuhu...

tp berbaloi kalu pensyarah ska assignmnt kita. YaahHHooo!!!

korg cmner plak? cite kt aku pe pndapat korg ttg skola dan kolej/universiti.

okes sumer....

dadaaaa....

LiRiK ...JaLaN pULaNgKu...

TUNDUKKU MALU DI DEPANMU

KERNAKU INSAN BERDOSA

KU ADUKAN SESALANKU

APAKAH KAN KAU TERIMA

KESUNYIAN INI SEDARKAN DIRIKU YANG LENA

TINGGALKAN SEMALAM YANG NANAR

LANTAS LELARKAN INGATANKU PADA SEMPURNAMU

TERPAUT AKU TAK BERPALING

KU BERSYUKUR PADAMU TUHAN

KAU TUNJUKKAN LALUANKU PULANG

DAN CINTAMU BAGAIKAN AIR DITANDUS SAHARA

BUATKU MELEPASKAN DAHAGA

SULUHKAN CAHAYA MENERANGI LANGKAHKU

SERLAHKAN SEGALA KIASAN INDAH CINTAMU

KU MOHON KAU TENANGKAN GUSAR HATIKU YANG RAWAN

BIMBANG KAU SINGKIRKAN TAUBAT KU

KU RAYU KAU HULURKAN KEAMPUNANKU PADA MU

TELAH KU ZALIMI DIRIKU

JANJI KU PADAMU ABDIKAN SELURUH JIWA

SEHINGGA MASANYA KAU SERU HUJUNG NYAWAKU

TAK KU TEMU DIMANAKAH HENTINYA

RAYUAN TAUBAT KU PADA MU

lagu ni memang best. memang kena dgn btg idung aku. aku masih berharap taubat aku diterima Allah. org senang jer cakap taubat nasuha...tp nk menyemaikan taubat nasuha tu didalam hati dan jiwa yg pernah berdosa...susah tau...

aku masih berharap....dan terus berharap...

Ya Allah...aku bukanlah hambaMu yang baik. Namun aku berdoa dan memohon keredhaanMu...keampunanMu...ingin sekali aku meraih cintaMu...Ya Illahi...amin.

...WiNdU sUMe kEnAnGaN KiTa....

juz now...aku tgok fs kwn ak kt kolej dlu...she'd uploaded our crazy pics time study2 dlu. kmi 1 batch mmg kaki bergmbar. pntang der yg pgg kamera...de jer yg posingnya.pensyarah kami dh xheran dh. hehehe...

seriously...i really miss all da moment! who would'nt???

i still remember...da 1st time we all met kt bndar bru bngi. kami duk satu umah...well actually kami 1 batch dipecahkn kpd 2 umah. mla2 tu mmg ssah gak nk knal dgn member2 1 umah tu lg tp...lma2 kami jd kamcing gak. maunya x...kalu dh hri2 gi kelas sesama...satu kelas...bt assignmnt sesama...g praktikal pn kitorg 1 umah...kje pn 1 hosp...konfem kmi jd kamcing beb!

aku akui we all had our ups n downs...kengkdg de gak kmi bergduh, bermasam muka, menangis, saling memarahi, menghempas pintu, maki memaki, hamun mehamun...tp kami tetap rapat...tetap satu as family. kami bergduh mcm siblings la.

ala....'xkn terasa mnisnya idup andai xdilambung gelora'...btul x?

aku syg sgt kt kgkwn aku tu.sampai bila2 aku xkn lupakan korg sume.pe yg dh kita lalui bersama...akn sentiasa di dlm ingatan.

1 yg pling unik dlm kumpuln aku ni...bla time mkn!

kalau kitorg mkn bersama kt asrama...kitorg akn mkn bersama2.what i mean is...kitorg bt 1 bulatan besar n mkn rmai2.mmg kecohlh! n kami xpernah berkira. kalau bab mkn...aku respek kwn2 aku. they all r da best! diorg xkn biar kwn2 diorg kelaparan.

kalau kitorg open table kt luar...jeng3...pinggan kitorg abis berpusing satu meja sbb kitorg nk sume rsa pe yg kitorg order.percya x??? ko order nsi gorg kerabu tp in da same time...ko dpt mkn nsi gorg kg,kuey teow kgfu, sup daging, mee goreng, mee sup, nsi gorg cina dan mcm2 lagilh! in some other view...save budget!

dlu...da msa2 bla aku xder duit. sometimes bla aku xder duit...aku xnk kgkwn aku thu...aku puasa. tp de gak kengkwn aku yg perasan n tlong aku. tu sebab aku syg sesgt kt kgkwn aku. smp mati aku xkn lupakan jasa dorg.

bla aku sakit...dorg jga aku btul2. diorg belikn aku mkn...suapkan aku mkn. sebelum g kelas...dorg buatkn sarapan aku n tlong bsuhkn bju aku. aku menangis gla2 bla igt alek suma kenangan2 ni...

so...this i dedicate specially to all my dearest frenzz........

My friends...when I think of you...

I think of all the times that we have been through

All the times we argue and fight

I know deep inside that it isn't right

I, then feel bad a a lot of pain

It feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain

I love you dear friends with all of my heart

But now that you're gone...I've fallen apart

I'm getting better as the days go by

I wish sometimes this was all a big lie

I pray to you every night

It's like you're my fire...a burning light

My dear friends...I miss you guys a lot

Our friendship....we will have it till da end of time

Friends till the end is what we will be...

I love you...and always be...

Muuaahhh!!

i feel like to cry now...huhuhuhu...

LaGu FaVoUrItE AkU sEKaRaNg

pErNaH DeNGaR LaGu TeRBaRu DaRiPaDa UNiC...LaNgKaH TeRcIpTa...lagu tu best sesgt!!! 1st time aku dengar aku menangis teresak2...yelar...cm aku ckpkn, aku ni dlu jhat...blamna aku nk jdi baik jer...nafsu aku mesti dtg nk mghalang...adusss....

ni liriknya untuk penghayatan korang semua...

SEMALAM AKU KELUKAAN
KECEWA KEHAMPAAN
MENCALAR KETABAHAN
MIMPI YANG SERING KU HARAPKAN MENJADI KENYATAAN
NAMUN TAK KESAMPAIAN

ALLAH...
INGIN KU HENTIKAN
LANGKAH INI BAGAIKAN TAK MAMPU UNTUK KU BERTAHAN
SEMANGAT TENGGELAM
LEMAH DAYA
HARUSKAH AKU MENGALAH
NAMUN JIWA KU BERBISIK INILAH DUGAAN...

DAN LANGKAHKU KINI TERBUKA
PADA HIKMAH DUGAAN UJI KEIMANAN
DAN DILONTARKANNYA UJIAN DILUAR KEKUATAN SETIAP DIRI INSAN

ALLAH...
PIMPINLAH DIRIKU
TUK BANGKIT SEMULA MENERUSKAN LANGKAH...PERJUANGAN INI
CEKALKAN HATI DAN SEMANGATKU
KURNIAKAN KETABAHAN...
AGAR MIMPI JADI NYATA
KEPADAMU KU MEMINTA

DAN KU MOHON AGUNG KUDRATMU
WAHAI TUHAN YANG SATU
SEGALANYA DARIMU...

da lagi satu lagu yg best untuk korg hayati dalam album terbaru UNIC ni...tajuknya HANYUT.tu pn tentang seseorg yg bersalah yg menginsafkan diri.

kdg2 aku terfikir...

aku solat...solat tetap solatlah tp...hti aku...iman aku xkuat.walaucmnepn aku b'doa...tp da sesuatu dlm diri aku ni yg menghalang aku dr merasai @ berpegang pd iman tu.aku besyukur sgt sbb dh dilahirkn dlm agama Islam.

yup...aku masih mencari...mencari nur yg psti.mungkin pe yg aku rsakn ni...sbb i'm not focusing pd ibadah aku.jujur...aku xnk jd cmni.aku nk pegang istilah 'muslimah sejati' dan aplikasikannya pd hti,jiwa dan dri aku.aku goyah...aku sesat...tulh perasaan aku sekarg.

aku xnk org cop aku sebgi munafik...dosa bsar...

tp aku msih mencuba...

aku hrap dgn niat aku yg nk berubah ni...aku xkhilangan arah dan hala tuju...Allah yang Maha Satu!

aku nk meraih cintaNya...untuk mencintaiNya...

InsYaAllah...Amin...

pErMuLaAn...bUkAn pEnGaKHiRaN...

THIS IS ALL NEW TO ME. I'M HERE BCOZ I WANT TO. JUZ SAY THAT...EMM...NTAH LAR! JUZ WISH WANT TO LIVE TO THE FULLEST! SEMUA ORG NAK CAMTUKAN?SIAPA YG XNAK??? HELLO TO ME...HELLO TO YOU...HELLO TO ALL...HELLO!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...AKU ADA DI SINI SEBAB NAK BERKONGSI CERITA, PENDAPAT, KOMEN @ APA2 JELAH...SEBAB AKU SUKA SANGAT MENDENGAR KISAH ORG, DGR PENGALAMAN ORG...JADI XLEHLAH NAK SALAHKN AKU. AKU DAH MINAT.

AKU...DLU DAN MSIH SEKARANG KOT...SEORG YANG XDELH BAIK SGT. BKN BERMAKNA AKU NI DRUG DEALER KE, DRUG ADDICT KE, SERIAL KILLER KE @ APA2 JELAH...TP PE YG AKU PERNAH BUAT DLU...MEMANG NAKAL. AKU SUKA KACAU ORG...CARI PASAL DGN ORG...TP AKU SUKA MENANGIS...MEMANG CENGENGLH...DLU TIME SEKOLH...AKU SELALU JGK KNA BULI...KENA PINGGIR...KENA PULAU...INGAT DLU AKU NI AKTIF KO-KO KE? HEHEHE...XLAH...PALING BENCI BERSUKAN KECUALI MENARI...TU PUN...TARIAN NTAH PAPE TAH!

SEKARANG AKU KEJE SEBAGAI SEORG JURURAWAT DI SEBUAH HOSPITAL YG AGAK TERKEMUKALH...MAK AKU DLU NASIHATKN AKU JOIN NURSE SBAB AKU NI KEPALA ANGIN.KNONNYA NAK SIKAP BARAN AKU TU TERKAWAL SIKIT... ALHAMDULILLAH...TERKURANGLH JGK WALOPUN SIKIT...HEHEHEHE...

JUMPA MACAM2 JENIS ORG DGN SERIBU MACAM KARENAH BUAT AKU BERFIKIR DLU SEBELUM NAIK ANGIN. PESAKIT KT WAD AKU...DH KIRA MCM FAMILI AKU GAK LAR. AKU BEKERJA KT WAD NEFROLOGI. JD PESAKIT AKU...PESAKIT YG SAMA JER MAJONYA. TU YG ADA LEH JD KAMCING GILA TU!

HUUAARRHHH....NGANTUK SIOT! SOK KEJE PG LAK..UNIFORM TAK IRON LAGI...HUAHUAHUA!!! DH LAR...SOK2 PLAK CITE LG...OK?

WASSALAM....